Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Does this life have any meaning??

A young girl, my niece, woke us up with a jolt last Sunday morning- she made us ponder- what are we doing? Does our existence make any sense, or do we constantly try to distract ourselves from that one and only reality- DEATH. That sweet girl, dedicated, sincere, responsible, religious and devoted to her parents poured 5ltrs on kerosene on herself and struck a match- why, because, she somehow felt betrayed that her God had not heeded her prayers and saved her mother, who died scarcely 10 days before after a prolonged illness. We were stunned beyond belief, how can an educated, responsible girl do this to herself, to her father? WHY WHY WHY? She had a bright future before her but she did not want to exist in this world without her mother, she chose an excruciatingly painful death for herself. Nothing that this world can offer to her was enough to match with her desire to be with her mom. Her mother, who , throughout har life wanted nothing but to have her well settled. It is true that her father may not live long after this tragedy, but then I wonder, we all have to die one day, so did the child show her GOD her own superiority in choosing her death?? Is her God sad, happy, intimidated? I guess we will never know. Is there a life after death when she can live with her mother in peace for eternity? who knows, but while we are here on earth we have to believe that this live and this earth is what we were meant for. We must struggle on...we must not attach such strong emotions to that which is unknown (our God), we should always strive to make this life beautiful for ourselves and for others. After this incident, I immersed myself in the life that I have lead. Picked up the much postponed task of scanning old photos with a vengeance. I found a lot of peace amongst my memories, I got in touch with a few more friends...read and re-read the comments of astonishment and joy and laughter which my friends posted on our class X snaps...and I have realised...live is good, we must hold onto it and hope and pray that Goid does not put us to the test, torture us too such an extent that we think of putting an end to it all! May we get the strength to carry on with our lives with a positive attitude, while remembering the ones who have gone, let us not forget the duty we have to those who are still there...I pray sincerely that mother and daugther have found peace with their God..

4 comments:

Koko said...

you can draw inspiration from Amitabhs commitment to writing his blog. hasnt missed a single post for an year and a half....writes about the most mundane stuff in an absorbing style
http://bigb.bigadda.com/.

Will call you on of these days.

2 B's mommy said...

That's so sad.

I agree with what you said, about going on and not giving up on life.

It must have been really difficult for her to imagine a life without her mother for her to take such a extreme step.

diya said...

Koko, I have read Mr B's blog. It is good, specially the tit bits about his father.
2 b's mom- yeah, I guess so...anyway, we were all baffled and went on discussing why she did it for sometime and then we gave up...we are carrying on with our lives but we do remember her and shake our heads, sometimes, pondering the sheer waste of a young life!

diya said...

Koko, I have read Mr B's blog. It is good, specially the tit bits about his father.
2 b's mom- yeah, I guess so...anyway, we were all baffled and went on discussing why she did it for sometime and then we gave up...we are carrying on with our lives but we do remember her and shake our heads, sometimes, pondering the sheer waste of a young life!